Why must look up me???

Normally two person in Malaysia that I always communicate through voipstunt..first one, off course my beloved mom and second one is my beloved sister-Kak Wa…she also one of my spirit in doing my phd..my last conversation with her few days ago..she said that she so ‘kagum’ with me..with my dreams and my way of talks she said also that I’m mature as on my age…whereas I never feel like that…actually I’m very sensitive and also ‘hard hearted person(keras hati)_but this hard hearted person I can’t apply to my relationships with my sv..in terms of my lifestyle..yes….normally..until today this year my initial age will change to 3……...I felt that I never mature as on my age…although I’ve three kids but sometimes I’m feel that I also like being kids…I don’t know….but maybe my sister’s view is right and precise-wallahualam... because she know me since I was baby- she also had being my babystter during my childhood…..and she know me better than I know myself..hopefully with my style can be the strength for me to get my dreams …like in the song ’Harapan Berbunga Realiti’….some of my friends also had been mentioned the same way…

Just Allah know my feelings…. lots of tests, barriers, delays, failure and many things that we’ve (I and my spouse) faced through before we’re in this level..and I realize that I’ll never give up in my life…the more barriers come out I should be more stronger….wallahualam
p/s I never feel I'm the best among the best in my family..... just enough I'm being good role model to my girls...