Thursday, July 29, 2010
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
-improvement of 'rejected' journal paper last January 2010: due date: no due date;depends on myself.....
-keep in progress on my 'critical chapters'-Chapter 5,6,7,8...due date : no specific dates has been given by my sv yet....still depends on myself........so I had to create my own due date: ??????????????????????????????
tomorrow will have 34th meetings with my sv...hopefully she is in good mood......
Monday, July 26, 2010
I still 'owe' few works that should finish last week, but still hang out until today... I need momentum to continue my unsettled work as soon as possible.....sorry for my loyal readers(did I have it???).....since lately all my entries all about my unstable feelings and emotion...
Friday, July 23, 2010
Berderai Mata Hatiku
Mendera Semua Harapan
Selaksa Cintaku Padanya
Ikatan Suci Romantika NaunganMU
Meski Sejuta Cinta Menyapa
Masih Cenderung Qu Padanya
Tuhan satukan hati kami
Dibawah Cintamu Alirkan Bahgia Di RedhoMU
Kutidurkan Mimpi Indah Ini
Padamu Yang Menggenggam Takdir
Kusandarkan Harapanku Ini
Padamu Ya Ilahi, Kan Ku Simpan Dalam Rongga Hati
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Azhar Sulaiman got degree from this university;he is my favourite artist!!!!my friend's university too;Nurul Adillah...
note-please ignore my chubby face,unavoidable case...hehehehe......
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Ramai pelajar PhD yang merungut kepada saya bahawa supervisors mereka tidak membantu serta beri tunjuk ajar sewaktu buat PhD. Saya hanya tersenyum. Buat apa kalau ada supervisor tetapi tidak menolong apa-apa. Dulu masa buat master degree senang aje. Sekarang ini perlu belajar sendiri. Kalau nak tahu pasal methodology kena baca sendiri, and kalau nak tahu guna statistics pun kena baca sendiri. Susah betul!
Selepas mendengar keluhan mereka, saya pun menerangkan kepada pelajar PhD ini dan kebetulan beliau ialah rakan saya. Begini, sebenarnya buat PhD ini, supervisor hanya beri 5 peratus sahaja manakala yang 95 peratus kerja kita. Kalau tidak supervisor yang dapat PhD! Dulu masa master berlainan sedikit dan kalau bagi saya master tu hanya cover 20% untuk PhD. Untuk buat PhD, pelajar perlu buat semua benda termasuk mendalami knowledge research termasuk cara-cara menjalankan kajian, sampling, research instrument, data analysis etc. Kalau nak tahu kena belajar dengan sesiapa aje yang mahir. Masa ini kita tidak lagi depend kepada supervisor kerana mereka hanya menunjukkan "jalan" yang betul. Kalau terlajak, supervisor akan betulkan. So, dengan mudah saya katakan bahawa, PhD ini perlu belajar sendiri dan pandai-pandai sendiri tetapi 'pergerakkan' pelajar PhD akan dipantau oleh supervisor mereka. Sebab itu ada berbagai-bagai cara supervisor membimbing pelajar PhD mereka. Tidak ada standard. Kalau dapat supervisor yang jenis menulis, maka pelajar beliau akan digalakkan untuk menulis. Begitulah...
Oleh yang demikian, saya nak syorkan kepada semua pelajar PhD supaya prepare diri masing-masing dengan research knowledge dan betul-betul faham menjalankan kajian. Jangan sudah mendaftar dan masuk program PhD baru nak belajar semua benda, and kita tahulah conclusionnya kan...mula malas nak belajar, lambat defend proposal, dan last sekali tak tamat. Bila tak tamat pengajian, mula rakan-rakan sepejabat akan mula mengata yang bukan-bukan. Ada kawan saya sampai tukar tempat kerja sebab tak tamat pengajian. Dulu masa dapat biasiswa PhD, dia diraikan dengan hebat, tetapi bila tak tamat pengajian, mula tak tahu nak letak muka kat mana termasuk saudara mara, mak bapak dan mentua. Emm...mungkin anda dah mendengar cerita-cerita begini. Apa boleh buat, PhD bukannya hak mutlak dan tanggungjawab supervisor PhD. Pelajar PhD yang bertanggungjawab sepenuhnya pada PhD mereka. Pesanan saya, banyakkan berusaha, berdoa dan bertawakkal. Jangan lupa duduk bersama-sama rakan PhD lain untuk boostkan motivation dan discuss bersama mereka. Jangan buat PhD sorang-orang. Nanti tak menjadi! InsyaAllah anda akan berjaya membawa balik topi burger dengan bergaya!
Thanks Sis Anis for sharing this links.....I'll keep it as spirit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Monday, July 19, 2010
Friday, July 16, 2010
Basically the PhD is a journey … a journey you will start out with all the willing of the world. I still remember the big smile on my face when I got accepted into the programme. It felt good! I was so certain of what I was going to do.I had it all figured out. For a moment or two it was all so clear.
I just forgot to consider the ‘hows’ and the ‘whys’ I would – still do – encounter throughout the PhD path as you mature your ideas. But that is part of the process, and also the fun even though sometimes you can’t really think of it in such way. And yes, you got it. A PhD is not linear in any sense, not even after your research proposal is accepted or the Ethics Committee gives you green light. Not even there! But how would I know? I had never done this before.
Doing a PhD is truly a work in progress, constantly in change and changing you. That’s the magic of a PhD!
Throughout that process there are two things that are fundamental to support all the ups and downs of doing and being a PhD: the supervising team and the network.
Regarding the supervising team: make sure to choose the right person. By that I don’t only mean to choose someone who is knowledgeable about the field, but someone you empathise with. Trust me, that is even more important! You will not get someone who is doing exactly the same research you are about to start to supervise you…because if that were the case then it would be their research and not yours!
What you want to is to find someone who knows enough of what you want to do, and who is also open to learn with and from you. Someone who is wiling to provide their personal views regarding the experiences they have gathered throughout the years. The good thing about having a supervisor is that you feel you are able to talk to them about your ideas and have them challenging you with their own. You don’t want someone who thinks exactly like you, but rather someone who thinks with you.
That takes me to the next and most important aspect of your relationship with your supervisor. It should feel like a partnership. There has to be mutual understanding. You need to be open about your ideas, questions and confusion stages. You need to feel you can trust and are trusted. You do not want an impersonal relationship. Your PhD is going to be pretty much your life for the next 4-5 years so make sure you are making it personal and are enjoying it (although sometimes it might not feel that way).
The other thing that is important and which will help complement the activity of your supervising team is the learning network you will be able to cultivate around you. That has at least, two purposes. First, it helps you widen your horizons and look beyond the tiny, little aspect on which your research will focus as you will be exposed to different ideas and practices they share. You do not want to shift the focus from your PhD, yet you want to be part of the wider picture. This will be crucial when looking for a job. You need to be able to show your knowledge spans beyond your PhD research project.
The network will help you connect with other PhDs and researchers. That is really important as you will be able to find people you can share the PhD joys, and the PhD blues too, with. Furthermore, you might even start collaborating with them, be it by providing feedback on their writings and/or writing together. Every PhD student should have at least one critical friend.
And on that note, I will end this post with just one more thought. A PhD can still be an individual project, but should never be a lonely experience!
In this post I have tried not to give an idealistic idea of what doing a PhD entails. Yet, do not feel totally demoralised with it. It is an experience worth pursuing, otherwise I would not be doing it.Hopefully other PhDs will pitch in with some more 1st hand experiences. It is always useful to learn from other people’s stories.
she is one of my phd mate in salford university
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
I know this year I will not back to Malaysia for celebrate eid ul Fitr like last year...but suddenly my heart feels like wanna back with my mom soon when she back this early August....
Yesterday...I just joking with my youngest daughter...'Hanie do you wanna back with maktok'????she said: ha.....(means she want follow her maktok back to Msia...)..
then I respond to her...If Hanie follow maktok...mama have to follow too.....
(within in my heart......is too impossible at this moment since now is my 'critical time' to my phd journey).......waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa......
At this moment, I really craving@ mengidam for mee udang teluk kumbar,penang.......
really have to enforce my mom to cook before she go back...huhuhuhu.....and furthermore...I hate with all the food(esp which food I can't get here...) which have been showed in my friend's facebook or blogs esp in Msia......menci and very da jelous!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!another challenges for my journey too!!!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, July 07, 2010
email dari staf berkenaan:
PhD students in Maxwell PhD room 926
Apologies for the short notice but we have just be advised that work
will start on Tuesday 13th July 2010 to install air-conditioning in
Maxwell PhD room 926
This means that all personal items and computers need to be moved off
the desks on Monday 12th July - this will be arranged by Paul Crompton
(firstname.lastname@example.org) the SBS IT Technician who will provide
cardboard boxes etc.
The work will be completed on Friday 16th July.
Tahap kemalasan aku pula masih di tahap maksima....dan jika mood membuat kerja hadir, harapnya rajin ke tahap maksima lah yer(walaupun ianya seakan mustahil untuk berlaku....)....paling lama dalam sehari pun hanya boleh menjangkau dalam 7 ke 8 jam sahaja(cthnya; hari ini mungkin?????)....dan biasanya purata masa bekerja ku hanya 4 jam...percaya atau tidak????aku pun tak tahu macamana nak masuk kerja semula kelak yang mana waktu pejabat adalah '8 to 5'...9 jam sehari....tapi pengalaman lepas...waktu bekerja macam aku ni biasanya fleksibel..hehehehehehehe..walaupun 'punch in punch out' ada......
Harap2nya walaupun atitud aku sebegini, izinkan aku Ya Allah untuk aku menamatkan perjalanan ini....Amin...................................
nota- rasanya selepas ini aku tidak mahu lagi menyatakan secara terperinci tentang status perjalanan ku ini...kerana sudah mula merasakan saat2 genting ini banyak perkara yang perlu dibendung!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Monday, July 05, 2010
Again, in that workshop where I'm the only one Malaysian and I met few new faces and ISOS academicians and phd students but what I'm trying to share is some of their research is not met my culture as Malays....I just listen and think deeply that their culture allowed them doing the weird research(this is my opinion) and if their research are presented in Asia or Malaysia spesifically, off course they will banned by their organizer.But, that is the unique experience that I think, I will never get in other workshop.....
From 13 presentation includes keynote speakers, they 'weird' and not 'halal' research for me are:
'Grindr:immoderation vs sin in the global virtual gay bar'- tentang gay
'Grabbing by the eyeballs;affective intensities of online porn'- tentang dot dot dot
'Multiplicity,congruity and the development of e-gambling commerce in the UK'- tentang perjudian
'Missing cultures across video games:queers,gaymers and the terms of their inclusion'-tentang permainan internet gay
the rest research presentation are alright and some of them have some same aspects within my research......
-managing the multiplies;understanding the power of google
-was it an internet election.....again
-multiple space and discontinuities as transformative tools
-mobility,personal learning environments and the use of space in higher education \/
-growing up in a virtual world:girls,identity and facebook \/
-and why would I participate?'a framework of value exchange and roles in digitally engaged communities \/
-football social media:playing the game, but where is the trust?
-photobombs:capturing and/or resisting everyday life
-'we die for the glory of the emperor' young people and 'playing' at war in on-line role playing games