If I can.....

Unstable feelings has came now.....
I know this year I will not back to Malaysia for celebrate eid ul Fitr like last year...but suddenly my heart feels like wanna back with my mom soon when she back this early August....
Yesterday...I just joking with my youngest daughter...'Hanie do you wanna back with maktok'????she said: ha.....(means she want follow her maktok back to Msia...)..
then I respond to her...If Hanie follow maktok...mama have to follow too.....
(within in my heart......is too impossible at this moment since now is my 'critical time' to my phd journey).......waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa......

At this moment, I really craving@ mengidam for mee udang teluk kumbar,penang.......
really have to enforce my mom to cook before she go back...huhuhuhu.....and furthermore...I hate with all the food(esp which food I can't get here...) which have been showed in my friend's facebook or blogs esp in Msia......menci and very da jelous!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!another challenges for my journey too!!!!!!!!!!