always worry in my journey....

Phd journey is tottally different than bachelor and master degre especially in independent research...and some people said this is the lonely journey....I admit that I've met some people who are doing research quiet similar with me but I still feel lonely .....why ??because the objective and target are totally different and what I worry now although I've in data collection stage but actually the works are not totally complete yet...insyaallah I'll do another pilot syudy for my second study where I've done for my pilot study for study 1 last nov..how big gaps that I have...this is maybe the study 2's location is at my homecountry, meanwhilde for study 1 was here, Manchester.I also have a few reason why it have big gaps about the time of pilot study for both of study.....I think I shouldn't reveal yet here....about the main fieldwork..erm..not totally settled yet...wish me all the best for second pilot study which scheduled around early Oct, insyaallah.....it means that???????????????????

will moving....

My office will being change to faculty office..so last wednesday and friday, I and my friends have to tidy up with keep it all our stuffs in huge boxes at our workstation for moving to another office soon..when and where still in question mark????...hopefully I 'll get new office at level 5 ..same level with my sv's office, although the office was on right end of level and my sv's was in left end of level..it doesn't matter...rather than at level 9..if something happend at lift...waaaaaaaa..too high to climb up..at the moment my office was at level 7 where normally I used lift to arrive it..and not too much us stairs(mana tak montel...syg kuar peluh....aiya...)
but definitely maybe on that time I was away already to somewhere...where??where????soon ..I'll explain in another entry...

Closing to approval....

After 2 weeks resubmit to ethical approval team, today I got the another respond to do some minor ammendments refer to appendixes that I had included with the form...erm actually I requestioned back to that person since the question are not clear with the 'high level' term for me...hopefully this is last one ammendments...I will do some ammendments for my appendix A only due to the statement which 'they' claimed not make sense( I always weak in doing make sense statement-my challenges too) since I always write what thrown out from my mind without think too much...erm..it seems that I have repolish my writing skills more and more....

more 16 months 4 days

If I look at ticker factory besides this entry..my journey just leave more 16 months and 4 days BUT I never feels that I could finish within the time...maybe I have to add another 6 months or ....maybe another 12 months???erm...why I said like that???since lots of things that I have to do soon and I just remember few words about my journey ' onak2 duri yg telah dan bakal ku harung ni kdg2 terlalu sakit utk ditelan..terlalu pahit utk di kulum...terlalu payau utk dijamah'....

Insyaallah my report will have eight chapters and at the moment I couldn't start on my writings yet since my data collection still not settle down, during my interim report I just have three simple content of chapters where I feel just 5% from my whole report soon..erm..sometimes I feel worry too.......maybe after Oct, I will start looking back my literature review....and furthermore about the theory that I have to study...... I just manage can understand basically one theory where I have to look forward another 5 theories to suit with my findings....after I got the analysis solution I have to validate my findings before come out with the findings..then recommendation and conclusion chapter which will not easy as what people assume??really..the most hard part too I think...all in all in phd works everything must have justification..without it...is not phd ..walalhualam....

unstable emotion

when too much my things will meet deadline...my emotion not stable...mix feelings and unexpected fel will come out inside my heart...erm..sometimes I like this songs..maybe can reveal my feelings now....



p/s baby and your in this song I assume my journey hehehehehe..
halo means light @ hole(refer to dictionary)...wallahualam.....

Ramadhan Almubarak alqareem...

Dapatkan Mesej Bergambar di Sini


Dapatkan Mesej Bergambar di Sini

reviewer....

hikmah of accepted journals...
today I was appointed to be a reviewer to one of paper related with my phd research and I was given 49 days to review the paper...hopefully I can finish my responsibilities within 10 days insyaallah....this is my first time being as reviewer, although no benefits in term in money..but the knowledge inside from the paper is more valuable.......wallahualam.....

9 important point why we must be motivated....

Adapted points from one of my 'subject' blogs....very good for me at the moment....


1.Motivasi diri sendiri adalah tenaga yang mengangkat diri seseorang itu ke sebarang tahap yang diingininya.


2.Orang yang benar-benar berjaya sentiasa sedar akan tanggungjawabnya dalam motivasi diri sendiri. Dia memulakan dari dirinya sendiri, kerana dialah yang memiliki kunci penggerak dirinya.

3.Alasan yang lumrah yang menyebabkan kegagalan seseorang itu ialah kerana mengabaikan sama sekali tenaga motivasi diri sendiri.

4.Adalah mustahil untuk memotivasikan diri orang lain, sebelum kita belajar memotivasikan diri kita sendiri.

5.Peluang akan berada di mana-mana bagi seseorang yang mengerti dan mengunakan motivasi diri sendiri.

6.Orang yang bermotivasi diri sendiri melibatkan diri, orang-orang biasa hanya berjanji.

7.Pada asasnya apa yang kita perolehi dari hidup ini bergantung kepada bagaimana kita menyesuaikan apa yang kita mahu dengan motivasi diri sendiri.


8.Tenaga motivasi diri sendiri datang dari satu tindakan rancangan peribadi teguh dan pelaksanaan rancangan tersebut dalam kehidupan anda setiap hari.

9.Jika kita tidak dapat memanafaatkan tenaga anda dan potensi anda sendiri maka mental kita akan terlantar sepanjang hayat..

Alfatihah to Ustaz Asri Rabbani...

Mawi version

mawi feat rabbani....'saksi' after death...

Feeling that my mom calling me back....

is it can be true????wallahaualam....


my dear lovely mom...forgive me on all my sins and faults...bless me will get the success here....


currently, I miss so much my dear passed away dad who already leaving me 30 years ago....

Congratulate to my seniors.....

Salam...
as motivation and spirit to us for work harder ..just wanna wish big congratulation to my seniors at my university for their promotion being as associate professor..........

Assoc Prof Dr Hartini Ahmad - she also my idola at the moment...
Assoc Prof Dr Razamin Ramli -my mentor few years ago....
Assoc Prof Dr Haslinda Ibrahim - also my research advisor few years ago....

few names who are still in phd journey......got their promotion as senior lecturer......hopefully may as booster to strive harder than now...
Miss Noredayu Omar- pursue her phd now in New Zealand
Mr Zainal Amin- pursue his phd in Leeds University
Mr Bahtiar Mohamad- pursue his phd in Brunel University

#all the best and hopefully I'll be like them one day....

note:
actually more than the names that I mention got their promotion..but the rest I didn't recognize so much....

I found the best point here....

Enabling Knowledge Conversion through a Sense of Virtual Community: A Case Study of Blog Community Conversations
By: Fa Martin-Niemi, Dr. Richard Greatbanks

Over the past decade, blogs have become an increasingly popular media for both personal expression as well as social networking. Initially used as a public forum for personal diaries, blogs continue to grow in variety and purpose. Blogs are now used as information sources, public forums for debate, and have even entered the domain of knowledge management (KM) as a location for communities of practice (CoP) discussions. Due to the virtual nature of the environment, and independent of face-to-face (FTF) interactions, blogs transcend many traditional barriers to participation, such as geographic location. Moreover, blogs have extended beyond communication tools to become virtual communities complete with their own social behaviours, and offering benefits inherently found within culture-sharing groups. Considering blogs from a KM perspective raises an interesting question; if blogs are virtual communities, do they provide an environment for knowledge conversion which has previously been considered the sphere of place-based communities? This research investigates blog conversations, specifically looking for evidence of enabling conditions for knowledge conversion from both tacit-to-tacit and individual-to-collective perspectives, within a blog context. The research methodology uses an adaptation of virtual ethnography to observe the extent to which blog posts and corresponding comments exhibit a sense of community between members. A collection of blog conversations were analysed to identify sense of community traits which also demonstrate a potential for knowledge conversion. This thematic analysis resulted in the identification of two major themes, enculturation and learning. Both these themes are underpinned by sense of community characteristics such as identity, common language use, influence and trust. In addition to revealing a sense of community among members, the findings of the study also confirm the knowledge conversion potential of blogs and their community.

Keywords: Knowledge Management, Enabling Context or 'ba', Blogs, Sense of Community, Virtual Communities, Social Networks

The new spirit come back...the past just let it go away far far away .....

STOP from sad anymore...don't down so much dear...you don't have so much time now....just leave 16 months to go....come on come on....this week my target to finish another 7 blogs...which I guess it was less entries than last week's blogs(actually last week's task was not finish yet..but I have to follow my planning..if not...can be effected my analysis planning soon).....furthermore..tomorrow I have to meet my sv to show my progress...wake up back dear....listen to this song...to get the new spirit....

There's a hero
If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you are
There's an answer
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know Will melt away

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

It's a long road
When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you
God knows Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone
Tear them away
Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time
You'll find the way

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

from the bottom of my broken heart.....

I felt that this week seems 'sudah jatuh ditimpa tangga'....since yesterday, frustrated with what happended(actually fault on myself)...*** big thanks to sis yati for the tips!!!!!!!!...so try to calm myself...went out from Manchester for a while with hoping can get the spirit again...~ mind theraphy~ but 'ku sangkakan panas hingga ke petang...rupanya hujan di tgh hari'....what actual happen...erm.. I don't think I should reveal here..just enough to say that I felt very frustrated yes..very frust....quite similar with this song......yes,I am...I'm too sensitive.....how to change my style...I don't know how????this year my age will be turn to new phase...but I felt so hard to change anything in myself....

Just be patience dear......

My big challenges again...I lost my today's work after spend almost 5 hour for data collection work....erm...maybe my fault too..too careless...you suppose save as through desktop then to your thumb drive..since the thumb drive got error now..you lost all your job today...not little jobs okay...almost nearly 90 entries from 282 entries....so what I can do....just be patience okay..just be patience....in addition today I'm fasting without took sahur, so off course now my head is too heavy and wait another one and half hour to back home then another 2 hour before break my fast today...honestly I'm frust today..but by enthusiasm become myself more strong and more strong...means that you have to stay up all the nights make sure you achieve the target for this week....must do it..just do it and be more careful and more focus after this.........

'sambil menyelam minum air.......'

during doing my data collection, I've found this article from my respondent...erm how far the trueness on this characteristics..just the 'owner' will be know......the bold one maybe its true for me...wallahaualam..the rest maybe yes..maybe not...

NOVEMBER
* Banyak idea dalam perkara.
* Sukar untuk dimengertikan atau difahami sikapnya.
* Berfikiran kehadapan.
* Berfikiran unik dan bijak.
* Penuh dengan idea-idea baru yang luarbiasa.????????????????
* Pemikiran yang tajam.
* Daya firasat yang sangat halus dan tinggi.
* Sesuai jadi seorang doktor.~ insyaallah....although not as medical doc...
* Cermat dan teliti.~~~ not me~~~
* Personaliti yang dinamik.???????????????
* Sifat yang berahsia, pandai mencungkil dan mencari rahsia.~may be?????~
* Banyak berfikir, kurang bercakap tetapi mesra.??????????????????
* Berani, pemurah setia dan banyak kesabaran.????????????????????
* Terlalu degil dan keras hati.
* Apabila berkehendak sesuatu, akan diusahakan sehingga berjaya.
* Tak suka marah kecuali digugat.
* Mudah ambil berat terhadap orang lain.
* Pandai muhasabah diri.
* Cara berfikir yang lain dari orang lain.
* Otak yang sangat tajam.
* Pandai mendorong diri sendiri.
* Tidak hargai pujian.??????????????????????????????
* Kekuatan semangat dan daya juang yang sangat tinggi apabila berkehendak sesuatu.
* Cuba sampai berjaya.
* Badan yang sasa.~definitely not~
* Kasih sayang dan emosi yang sangat mendalam dan romantik.
* Tidak pasti dengan hubungan kasih sayang.
* Suka duduk di rumah.????????????????????
* Sangat rajin dan berkemampuan tinggi.?????????????????
* Amanah, jujur, setia dan pandai berahsia.
* Tidak berapa berjaya dalam mengawal emosi.
* Bercita-cita tinggi.
* Perangai tidak dapat diramal dan mudah berubah-ubah

source; one of subject blogs- actually the subject took from kajian mengenai bulan dan sikap anda, yang telah dijalankan oleh Yang Berbahagia Dato' Dr. Fadzilah Kamsah.

Post again this song (had published here on 17072008)......Jawapan dipersimpangan...

Perjalanan hidup ini sangat panjang....
bagaikan kembara yg tiada hujungnya
Di sini ku berdiri di persimpangan
Jauh pandangan yang kini ku renung

Oh di manakah kau yang ku cari
Dalam kembaraku ini
Mengapa kau singkir ku ke tepi
Bagaikan ku tak berharga lagi

Perjalan hidup ini yang mencabar
Menguji segala kekuatan
Dalam kembara yang penuh debar
Ku berpegang jalanMu oh Tuhan

I've do nothing today....just watch my kids and then some light searchings..BUT my hands.......

This entry doesn't mean to plead anybody to me...... but just wanna share one of my challenges for this journey...I've echzema since in Malaysia(if I've not fault since 2004) but when I come here..my echzema never ends...sometimes no at all....sometimes critical as the pictures below....I did have the cream prescribed by dermatologist one year ago..but sometimes it couldn't help..i try another alternative herbal(aloe vera plus honey) lotion...lo'ccitane hand cream..and every time wash the dishes use gloves...but it stillnot 100% suceessful...that's why i'm alyways try to avoid from tense because it will affect to my hands....now..yes..honestly i'm too tense with my works immediately back from holiday although I've got the enthuasiatic..but the level of tense still high.....this happen maybe because of I do not finish my target yet before another summer vacation next month...hopefully my hand will be better soon...it was so hurting especially when I've touch with the water when to take ablution(wuduk)...

research regarding to facebook..

FACEBOOK: MEASURING THE COST TO BUSINESS OF SOCIAL NOTWORKING


Research on Social Network Sites: Facebook Use and Social Capital

Facebook: a network, a research tool, a world?

How to use Facebook for Market Research

Facebook: the “social media” revolution A study and analysis of the phenomenon

Universities visit.....

Last week when I and my family had summer breakaway...we got chances to visit some universities during the journey....

The University of Oxford



my friend, asmah doing her phd here....

my colleague at UUM, nerda doing her phd here...

very beautiful scenery university...i love the surroundings....my friend- sis ita got her masters here....

The university where Assoc Prof Dr Bidin and Dr Noridayu(my faculty mate) got their Phd in 2005 and 2006..

University where supposedly one of my friend further phd here..but it was not...

my BTN friend ,Shazmin's university...

The university where my fp/blogs friend's husband(sis gee) got his phd last year...Dr Nasrul

Comments from my dear sv....

Today...as in coincidences...the day that I should came to school and yesterday my sv emailed to meet her just for give back the comments about the ethical form..not so much things i should corrected and she reminded to me that will be not impossible if I get back and have to amend again...hopefully not...but normally everything the works that I've been done she require to me need English native speaker to check back my words...who will be my victims after this??normally academic staff was not round during the summer break..maybe my office mate? who???erm..don't know???just to let know..in my office the English people just a few- can be count use my finger...1...2..3..4 and 5..and not at all like to help me...some of them seldom in office some of them is too reluctant to help...some of them very quiet.... i try my best if not ...like or not..i have tot email to appropriate person soon as possible...

notes-stuart willing to help me alhamdulillah..waiting his feedback..