My spirit is here.....

Thanks mom for coming here again.....
Hopefully I''ll be more have spirit to continue this journey!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Packed weekend after 25 June.....UPDATED VERSION at 2nd Aug

Since my mom will come...my day in weekend will full activity(at this moment) with:..................

26 June- Manchester city[episode 1]; done on 8th July
27 June- Chester;done on 11th July

28 June & 30 June- BIRTHDAY MIZAH AND HANIE- weekdays....

3 July- Liverpool(Albert Dock)yes..as scheduled
4 July- Carboot(Middleton)/Fruit Picking (Warrington)...earlier than scheduled; on 27 June

10 July - Lake District(Windermere/Lakeland)..as scheduled
11 July- Carboot(Bowlee)/Chester visit...

*17 July - Sunderland/Newcastle Upon Tyne
18 July - Leeds/York -BIRTHDAY ZIMAH-

24 July- Manchester city[episode 2]
25 July- Carboot(Oldham)/Daisy Nook Country Park @ Oldham

31 July-Big Carboot J29 @ Mansfield/Sheffield
1 Aug- Small Carboot @ Middleton / Lowry Outlet Mall

6 Aug- South Wales;Cardiff
7 Aug-Mom back to Msia...sob...sob.....sob...

*Fixed plan ..the rest...depends on the weather and my health condition.....

Thank you ALLAH....

I've got my refund even though not 100%...it is more than what I expected to get....
I've got the proceedings from the organiser....Thank you ALLAH for listen to my wishes.....
My paper in that proceeding:
MALAYSIAN UNDERGRADUATE COMMUNITY'S SUCCESS IN KNOWLEDGE SHARING BEHAVIOUR.

Hopefully by next year, I'll able to attend that conference at Japan...perhaps......amin...................

I wish to be addicted on write up..so that I can finish on time..

At this moment, I always do have my phd plan. What have to do day by day...but I can follow almost 75% only since I'm too lazy' with the serius work...more to leisure work rather than than improvement work due to write up works.....I have to do back up plan if not,I will suffer with my journey.....................

my phd journey

COpy and paster from my FB wall:
my status-
my phd journey is not easy as they thought....even look a like smooth and no problems from outside(actually it is totally wrong!!!!!)..there a lots of obtacles and barriers inside there-only myself know what is it......bless my self can go through until the end of it...amin.................

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Comments and respond from my friends........................
Suziyanti M. Suhaimi and Kak Ja like this.
Suziyanti M. Suhaimi:
setiap org temui peluang & cabaran berbeza...
Siti Suhana Mohd Amir
jangan putus asa Intan...teruska usaha ok...
Hazlina Ali
not just ur phd journey....but all people facing with their own challenge..just in different angle. Tapi bersyukur sbb kita diberi PELUANG utk ambik PhD...kalau org lain?..emm syukur2
Sharifah Hasnur
Good Luck Dear...
Farahida Ramli
bila nak blk m'sia?
Azila Azmi
amiiinnnn
Ik Ben Samsul
saboo jelaa
Nor Intan Sulaiman
sz-ya benar......akak akui kenyataan itu....rezeki dan ujian setiap manusia tidak ada yg sama.....
k.su-thanks k.su..i never give up with my journey,cuma kdg2 cuak2 dgn sikap manusia yg tdk memahami... itu je...
k.ina-i do understand ur point but normally i always feel alone sbb ???????? even though I know not only me face challenges.....
sharip- thanks dear.......
farah- entahla...tak tahu..........
azila-aminnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
Nadia Rosmiah
lain org lain rezeki....hidup kita bukan hidup orang...pedulikkan apa org nk kata...yg penting biar kita dijalan yg diredai Allah :)
Aida Maswani Md Yusop
yaa betoi apa nadia kata tu.. hanya kita yg tahu apa yg kita nak. pedulikan cakap org lain.. biaqkan depa bercakap.. bila penat nanti berentilah tu.. apa yg penting sekarang intan n hubby mesti cekal menempuhi segala cabran yg mendatang... kak aida doakan yg terbaik wat intan sekeluarga
Nor Intan Sulaiman
nadia- 'pedulikkan apa org nk kata'; the hardest thing for me to do....since I live here as part of community not as individualistic style....
k.aida- kalau org tu tk penat cemana?????anyway thanks for the bless for me.....
Melissa Azzura
Insyaallah dipermudahkan oleh Allah....Good Luck baby!!!
Nadia Rosmiah
sama la gak kt org yg mcm aku yg kawen foreigner ni....tp..try ur best to pedulikkan apa org kata...it's hard..but...by time..u'll see..sometimes..ignorance is d best medicine...hahaha...
Nor Intan Sulaiman
melissa- thanks dear...I miss you....
nadia- I try my best....thanks for trying to understand me.....are you okay now rite????how's the sickness???dah settle down or not?????
Nadia Rosmiah
dah sikit Alhamdulillah....hg take care la...kalau nk pikiaq semua org kata..alamat la ..4 u 2 b @ ur place now....bukan senang..org ja x tau apa yg hg kena sacrifice..org syoq nampak hg study obersea wit family..yg lain2...bukan depa tau apa yghg lalui n rasa...
Nor Intan Sulaiman
nadia- thanks dear...really understand on my condition....

Congrats dear!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

For his second publication in journal with his supervisor in 2011 edition volume.....I'm proud with you(my spouse off course)...Took from his status today at his FB...I'm happy on behalf on him.......

alhamdulillah... the paper "A numerical study of tournament structure and seeding policy for the soccer World Cup Finals" has been accepted officially by the editor in chief. It is now scheduled for the first issue of 2011 Statistica Neerlandica journal

Postgraduate Research in Arts,Social Sciences and Humanities(PRASH 2010)

Even I just present poster....'struggle' to attend it....thanks my dear spouse for the support through sent and invite me from the conference venue which is almost 1 hour from home...since I'm quite lazy to take train due to my 'health' condition...........

@Edge Hill University today-16 June 2010.............

Share some pictures...no more my faces because I do not have any 'well-known' friends in that conference and majority of them are 'white people' and I'm the only one as Malaysian, even I'm not the winner for poster presenter but I'm proud because two out of three winners for poster category are Muslim Pakistani Briton participants-congrats to Miss Sabina Shah and Miss Latifa Patell;besides that, all the six winners for spoken presentation are from 'white people' and majority of them are from part-time PhD researcher BUT they're full time academicians...and..... it was nice conference within valuable workshops(Speed Reading and Project Managament-actually it consists of parallel workshop)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!furthermore, I also got a few academic networking person esp one of them are just finished the viva....Dr Susan Graves...

located at Ormskirk, Lancashire(between Liverpool and Manchester)

keynote speaker-Dr Mark Llewellyn from Liverpool University give his speech about 'The value of PhD'; I like his hair..woman likely.....

One of the poster winner ; Miss Sabina Shah...

another 'attracted' poster but could not find the owner of poster for ask some question...

I've done...alhamdulillah.............

Even I don't have any energy for it; the strength from my family makes me strong!!!!!!!
I've to work smart more and more after this.............


More stories regarding this event.......................

Biarpun lemah....ku teruskan jua.....

Semlm dan hari ni, ada SPARC kat universiti...sebenarnya diri terasa amat lemah dan tidak ada semangat untuk bentang kertas kerja hari ini, namun demi anak2 dan perjuangan yang belum berakhir ini...aku teruskan jua...biarpun seminar ini di'hina', di'lekeh', dipandang rendah dan sebagainya...aku tetap aku.....aku tahu apa yang aku lakukan dan aku tidak perlu bersandar pada kata2 orang asalkan apa yang aku lakukan ini di atas landasan yang betul....insyaallah

Honestly to share- Try not being lazy when look this comments>>>Still far away to go...............

COMMENTS AND SUGGESTIONS FROM THE EXAMINERS
*Sorry, only comments no full answers provided here...think for your research context please;some of them is my sv's suggested answer; not my answer at all......................................

1-Dr Polly
i-Can you explain some the theories you have used and where this fills in your research?
*Needed to say the context not too much details; Need clear one sentence definition; if they are both same meanings

2-Dr Gordon
What is the main finding in this thesis?
* A list of the CSF actually is…; Needs to be shorter and more to the point

3-Dr Polly
Could you explain interpretive paradigm/ phenomenological since you seems to have done a survey
*My answer was too long, supposedly need to say very precisely

4-Dr Gordon
What is the difference between KL and Manchester? What have you found?
*my answer is not too much, but concern on Politic,
added by my sv - How in your thesis do you account for the difference in the student: Malaysian in UK(overseas country) and Malaysian in KL(home country)? How do you deal with this?


6- Dr Polly
You have used various survey tools; surveymonkey/nvivo;
What are the limitations/drawbacks of using these tools
*Supposedly answered in a practical way

7-Dr Gordon
How did you get to Chapter 7- Chapter 3 and Chapter 4 not showing the links with Chapter 7
Analysis is missing-where is this? Taken out but that is more towards the raw data
At what point do you tell the reader what you did I got to Chapter 7(but how did you get that?) Describe the whole process- summarise or synthesize the process
How you have classified and codify the data findings? Not clearly explained still in tacit way-supposedly in explicit way- as further works

8-Dr Gordon and Dr Polly
i-Data analysis needs more work
ii-How did you do that research
iii-Classify & Categorisation

9-Dr Gordon
i-How do you account for cultural difference?
ii-Do you classify the same posting in the same or different categories?
iii-Pistic/Social categories
iv-Need to be reassured that classifications correct-is it subjective-that is missing
v-You are not acknowledge your own involvement- as a Malaysian student- all these factors shaped your decision @ ‘you are not acknowledging things that should be acknowledgement

10- Dr Polly
i-Did you have ‘ethical dilemmas’
ii-Where is ethics- in chapter 4-need to be a heading/subheading somewhere-needs to be explicit
iii-If they know you are observing them, how did that affect the results?
iv-The researcher believes in ‘subjective reality’- put all this here….

11-Dr Gordon & Dr Polly-need argueable discussion in thesis
i- The whole issue servicing Web 2.0-how do you define it?
you are trying to reconcile all the differences and get your definition
ii-What would you say Web 2.0 is ? in 1 or 2 sentences
Reason : Blogs are an application are personal diary
Social Networking isn’t really Web 2.0 in its own setting
( he is asking about the broader concept)
iii- It’s a bit messy ; Define our term on your scope; You have taken your own definition I used that = synthesis of variables prevailing= 1 theories
iv- Page 182-validation
v- Not met English standard

12-Dr Gordon
i- need to say what you have done precisely
ii- English; This | linking problem
iii- Tables- question use the tables; here a lots of done would be better as TEXT
iv- this has to be as long that corrects together–look at flow| how it connects pace and flow

All these question can be my potential questions in the real exam soo.......have to practice more and more after this.......

Why I'm so lazy lately????????????????????

Lazy is not good for my journey okay...but I don't know how to do if my lazy mood comes and I cannot do anything unless doing the non-phd works.....actually this 'thing' I assume as my really2 though challenges.....I still wait for my hardworking mood arrives to me as soon as possible.
I have to work smart and consistence ..because I know.....I'm not hardworking student type anymore since I married hehehehehe.......during my first degree and master it can be yes(are you sure????????...) but now...I cannot be anymore .......


Dapatkan Mesej Bergambar di Sini

Terima kasih atas 'penghinaan'............................

Masih teringat2 ayat sahabatku .......................'laki aku tak main la SPARC2 ni apa kelas'(ayat tu timbul rentetan rakan aku lain bertanyakan pada beliau samada suami nya turut serta dlm SPARC atau tidak) memandangkan mereka sekeluarga dan beberapa keluarga lain akan ke 'luar daerah' untuk bercuti bersamaan dengan hari2 SPARC minggu hadapan......aduh!!!!!!!!! ter'duduk' aku dibuatnya....mungkin pernyataan dikeluarkan secara tidak sengaja itu telah mengundang kepada perasaan terhina kepada aku yang saban tahun menghadiri SPARC itu...dan tahun ini aku baru 'selesa' untuk menjadi pembentang secara lisan- amin.................

Takpelah hari ini hari dia...mungkin esok lusa siapa tahu hari aku pulak.....

Haruskah???????????

Kini aku menjadi orang yang AMAT sensitif hingga kadang2 aku rasa tak masuk dek akal apa yg aku sensitifkan...nak senaraikan berjela kang nanti...Cukuplah aku nyatakan aku tak selesa berperasaan se'ekstrem' sebegini.....Mudah2an ianya hanya sementara sahaja buat beberapa minggu ini sahaja....kadang2 rasa macam nak lari bertapa di mana2 gunung supaya perasaan sensitif ini tidak menjadi sebegitu ekstrem....

Selain perasaan AMAT sensitif, aku juga tetiba ada attitud suka mahu memberontak dalam hati...atau dalam erti kata lain aku berkecenderungan tidak mudah untuk bersetuju dengan apa jua situasi mahupun cadangan....ataukah aku mahu melatih untuk penulisan tesis aku bahagian 'critical thinking' kelak?????entahla...bengong dan terasa jiwa makin kacau sungguh aku ini......

Reward if....

Last week when I attend the training about preparing the viva by my sv,Dr Maria Burke; she started with the motivation why doing the phd....and it makes me push myself that I must prepare something as reward for myself if I get; if not....forget about it....what is my aim reward??????????????????????????????????????????????????
I shouldn't tell now since my journey is still far away......But, after this journey end it remarks my academic career have to restart again AND I never aim for promotion drastically or whatever benefits after get the title of Dr.
The important things is, I hope I can maintain my humble attitude and 'down to earth' style, not more proud or whatever negative attitude which makes people hates me...nau'zubillah......

Mengharungi waktu2 sukar buat masa ini......

Aku yakin tiada siapa yang mengerti apa yg aku cuba di suratkan di sini.....
Cukuplah aku nyatakan di sini...aku kini melalui waktu2 yang sukar dalam hidup aku.....
Mujurlah aku mempunyai teman hidup yang memahami dan anak2 yang sangat 'supportive' kecuali si comel tu yang kebelakangan ini sering kali jugak dia buat 'perangai' yang sukar ditafsirkan(mcm mak dia jugaklah tu-suka 'bebai' org utara kata...)

Cukup kot..tak dapat taip lama...sbb tetiba je rasa nak.......................argh..........................................................................................................................................