Motivation Quotation......

Aku meminta kepada Tuhan setangkai bunga, segar, Ia beri kaktus berduri. Aku minta kupu-kupu diberinya-Nya ulat berbulu. Aku sedih dan kecewa. Namun kemudian, kaktus itu berbunga indah sekali dan ulat itupun menjadi kupu-kupu yang sangat cantik. Itulah jalan Tuhan, indah pada masaNYA! Tuhan tidak memberi apa yang kita harapkan. Tapi Dia memberi apa yang kita perlukan. Kadang kala kita sedih, kecewa dan terluka. Tapi jauh di atas segalanya Dia sedang mengatur yang terbaik dalam kehidupan kita.............................................
Showing posts with label pengalaman. Show all posts
Showing posts with label pengalaman. Show all posts

Sunday, September 18, 2011

First experience..............

Challenging but it was so meaningful for the author...............................

Visited 23 students in 14 companies within 5 days include travelling time from Jitra to 3 different places(Cameron Highlands,the author chose last week period since my first girl was on leave from school since UPSR examination.....The challenging condition when find the place using google map{out of update) and Garmin is out of battery(using smartphone)...the reason was the road name was changed, the company no signage....luckily majority of my students was so helpful....I managed to find their places......The author got opportunity to meet with some of their supervisors means it may increased her confidence level to meet the 'big person' /somebody in the company since she know who she was....

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Buat ingatan untuk semua dan untuk diri sendiri~wallahualam~

'Supaya kamu jangan berdukacita terhadap apa yang luput dari kamu dan supaya kamu jangan terlalu gembira terhadap apa yang diberikanNya kepadamu.Dan Allah tidak menyukai setiap orang yang sombong lagi membanggakan diri'[al-hadid:23]

Petikan ulasan firman Alquran di atas daripada buku 'Bila Allah Menduga Kita':Syed Alwi Alatas:-

'Pada kenyataannya,rasa senang yang berlebihan boleh membuatkan kita lalai dan lupa diri.Di satu pihak,kegembiraan itu boleh membuat kita lupa untuk bersyukur.Kita lupa dengan siapa yang telah memberikan nikmat itu kepada kita dan kita meletakkan semua kemenangan dan kejayaan kita sepenuhnya atas kemampuan kita sendiri.Orang yang gembira secara berlebihan biasanya berkecenderungan tinggi untuk berbangga diri.Sekiranya dia menyedari bahawa segala sesuatu itu datang dari Allah,tentu dia tidak perlu merasa kesenangannya secara berlebihan, yang akan membuatkan seseorang lupa dengan kemungkinan yang akan dihadapinya di masa depan'[m/s:85]


Mudahan2 kita semua tergolong dalam golongan yang sentiasa bersederhana dalam segala aspek kehidupan...Amin.....

Friday, December 03, 2010

'Mengupas' lirik nasyid

PASRAH SEGALANYA
-orange font-lirik lagu
-red font-kupasan jujur dari aku

Pernah hati ini terguris
Seingat aku masa tahun pertama....aku selalu menerima 'kritikan' yang negatif terhadap diri dan anak2
Dengan fitnah dan tohmahan menghiris
Orang memberi persepsi yang negatif apabila mengetahui aku dan suami belajar dgn anak2 yang masih kecil...termasuk anak2 pun ditegur...dimana saiz mereka yang agak kecil dengan umur mereka sehingga kini
Sehingga terasa diri ini hina
Aku memang terasa sedih dan lemah semangat sepanjang tahun pertama...dengan tiada famili di sisi-jauh di Malaysia
Kerana tiada siapa yang sudi membela
Aku cuba meluahkan perasaan kepada yang sudi mendengar...ada yang sudi mendengar tapi hanya segelintir ..

Kutabahkan hatiku harungi hidup
Namun aku cekalkan hati dengan sokongan moral suami dan bonda tercinta di Malaysia
Biarpun tiada siapa yang menemani
Hanya suami dan anak2 lah penguat semangat ku sepanjang hidup di rantau ini
Keseorangan aku di laluan sepi
Bonda dan keluarga tersayang semuanya di Malaysia, termasuklah sahabat2 karib ku
Ditinggalkan mereka yang kupercayai
Bukanlah ditinggalkan, aku yang terpaksa meninggalkan buat sementara waktu demi sebuah perjuangan ini

Namun ku tahu ada hikmahnya
Aku cuba belajar meredhai
Setiap segala yang menimpa diri
Dengan apa yang telah ditakdirkan buat diri ini
Kuserahkan segala padaMu Tuhan
Setiap kali solat, padaMu lah aku mengadu
Yang berkuasa jua mencipta
Yang Maha Mendengar dan Maha Mengasihani
Kerana engkau Maha Mengetahui
Moga aku sentiasa merasakan kebergantungan terhadapMu
Segala apa yang terbuku di hati
Kerana hanya padaMu yang mengetahui segalanya

Ya Allah tidakku terdaya lagi
Namun di tahun ketiga ini, aku merasakan perjuangan aku PERLU menemui titik noktahnya
Menahan dugaan yang mencabar ini
Janganlah engkau memanjangkan lagi tempoh perjuangan yang penuh dengan cabaran ini
Terasa bagai noktah telah kutemui
Mohon padaMu agar aku dapat menamatkan perjuangan ini secepat mungkin
Mengakhiri segala yang telah kumulai
Dengan kejayaan yang dinanti2kan oleh semua pihak.....terutamanya famili tersayang
Ya Allah engkau lindungilah aku
Namun aku sedar banyak lagi ujian yang perlu ditempuh
Bekalkanlah daku dengan limpahan iman
Kuatkanlah semangatku, Cekalkanlah hatiku
Agar tabahku menghadapi dugaan
Supaya aku 'lulus' dengan ujian2 Mu ini
Agar tidakku terhenti di pertengahan
Dan tidak pulang ke Malaysia dengan 'tangan kosong'

Kini di sini aku berdiri
Aku pasrah padamu
Bersama harapan yang tulus suci
Moga aku berjaya menggapai apa yang dijuangkan
Agar terbitlah kembali mentari pagi
Semoga kejayaan milik aku dan suami
Setelah malamku berkalut benci
Setelah kami menempuhi segala keperitan hidup di rantau orang hampir 42 bulan insyaallah(sehingga Jun 2011 kelak....)

Thursday, September 30, 2010

Jgn tiru mcm saya........

Sejujurnya aku bukan orang yang pandai menyusun dan mengkategorikan dokumen2 untuk rujukan dalam proses penulisan..

masa tahun pertama aku cuba kategorikan mengikut Knowledge Sharing(KS),Knowledge Management(KM),Reserach Methodology(RM) tapi skrg ni dah makin susah buat mcm tu...jadinya aku cuba ikut bab2, tapi kesudahannya, dokumen2 ku tetap terabur....tercampur aduk yg dah 'cite' dgn yg belum/tidak 'cite'....Dulu beriya-iya guna End Note...tapi nampak seakan tak dpt membantu 100% utk sistem Harvard yg digunapakai di univ ini, memandangkan ia tidak 100% sama dgn sistem Harvard dlm End Note...kesudahannya susun manual je la jwbnya...jawabnya, masih ada rujukan2 ku yang 'tercicir',walau dah hampir seminggu fokus ku hanya kepada pengemaskinian rujukan yang sangat renyah, walaupun nampak mudah.......aku ni nama je fokus dlm bidang pengurusan pengetahuan(knowledge management) tapinya pengetahuan aku dalam pengurusan dokumen sangat tidak praktikal!!!!!Malunya.......tapi disebabkan pengkhususan yang terperinci aku adalah kelakuan perkongsian pengetahuan(knowledge sharing behaviour), dengan jujurnya aku ingin kongsikan pengalaman yang tak seberapa ini, dgn nasihat ...jangan la mencontohi saya hal2 pengurusan dokumen ini...memang sangat 'chicky'..............kalau dari segi 'survivor' bolehla nak share sikit2....tapi perkongsian aku ada caranya yang tersendiri(lebih kepada tersirat daripada tersurat)......wallahualam...............

Monday, July 05, 2010

Their culture is not my culture......

Last week(1st and 2nd July), I got opportunity attend 3rd Digital Culture under ISOS,SBS at CUBE,Manchester....

Again, in that workshop where I'm the only one Malaysian and I met few new faces and ISOS academicians and phd students but what I'm trying to share is some of their research is not met my culture as Malays....I just listen and think deeply that their culture allowed them doing the weird research(this is my opinion) and if their research are presented in Asia or Malaysia spesifically, off course they will banned by their organizer.But, that is the unique experience that I think, I will never get in other workshop.....

From 13 presentation includes keynote speakers, they 'weird' and not 'halal' research for me are:
'Grindr:immoderation vs sin in the global virtual gay bar'- tentang gay
'Grabbing by the eyeballs;affective intensities of online porn'- tentang dot dot dot
'Multiplicity,congruity and the development of e-gambling commerce in the UK'- tentang perjudian
'Missing cultures across video games:queers,gaymers and the terms of their inclusion'-tentang permainan internet gay





the rest research presentation are alright and some of them have some same aspects within my research......
-managing the multiplies;understanding the power of google
-was it an internet election.....again
-multiple space and discontinuities as transformative tools
-mobility,personal learning environments and the use of space in higher education \/
-growing up in a virtual world:girls,identity and facebook \/
-and why would I participate?'a framework of value exchange and roles in digitally engaged communities \/
-football social media:playing the game, but where is the trust?
-photobombs:capturing and/or resisting everyday life
-'we die for the glory of the emperor' young people and 'playing' at war in on-line role playing games
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Friday, June 04, 2010

Terima kasih atas 'penghinaan'............................

Masih teringat2 ayat sahabatku .......................'laki aku tak main la SPARC2 ni apa kelas'(ayat tu timbul rentetan rakan aku lain bertanyakan pada beliau samada suami nya turut serta dlm SPARC atau tidak) memandangkan mereka sekeluarga dan beberapa keluarga lain akan ke 'luar daerah' untuk bercuti bersamaan dengan hari2 SPARC minggu hadapan......aduh!!!!!!!!! ter'duduk' aku dibuatnya....mungkin pernyataan dikeluarkan secara tidak sengaja itu telah mengundang kepada perasaan terhina kepada aku yang saban tahun menghadiri SPARC itu...dan tahun ini aku baru 'selesa' untuk menjadi pembentang secara lisan- amin.................

Takpelah hari ini hari dia...mungkin esok lusa siapa tahu hari aku pulak.....

Monday, May 31, 2010

Just share some valuable experiences from .....

Dr Haliyana Khalid;who is Dr Nazean's friend @ Lancaster

Following, I share some highlights of the viva.

10 minutes presentation

I have to do a presentation. You have to consult your Internal Examiner (IE) whether you need to do this, because in some department this is not a requirement. Presentation will act as a buffer, to ease your tension- this is according to the Independent Chair (IC). But I found, doing presentation can be very stressfulL

Independent Chair (IC)

There were 4 of us in the meeting room. Since both of my examiners are less experience in conducting viva, an independent chair was appointed. Under the university’s rule, this IC will act as an observer or a referee to see the viva is conducted in a fair play..Mamat IC masa viva aku adalah sangat sempoi. Bestla..at certain points, dia pon ada menyampuk jugak, making the process a little bit less stress.

Qualitative research

Doing qualitative research is not easy (sapa rasa senang angkat tangan?) And writing qualitative material can be very appalling at times. Walaupun ramai yang selalu kata, “ ala..Yana takpe, she can write…” (thank you)..tetapi tuan-tuan dan puan-puan, ini telah menimbulkan masalah juga.

When writing any statement in thesis, you really have to be certain whether it is based on your findings, informal discussions or your assumptions. It’s not wrong to give opinions but you really have to provide evidence-, which can be from your findings or literature reviews. In my case, although they praised the flow of the thesis,…some parts still need justifications to support arguments/statements.

Try to answer the questions

Although aku dah prepare banyak potential questions, none came up! But if they did came up, mungkin aku lupa yang aku ada tulis soalan tu. So, masa viva..it’s belasahla labu time!

Try to answer all the questions. If you don’t understand, asked them to rephrase. If you can write it down, even better. I wanted to do it (write qs, perhaps the gist), but the IE won’t let me…so dengar je la soalan yang keluar, macam interview kerja plak rasanya.

They are enthusiasts and interested

Janganlah fikir kalau kita kena ‘grill’ teruk-teruk, the thesis is bad. Most of the time it is because the thesis is good and they want to know more. But it is hard to think that way especially if you are under pressure.

Macam aku hari tu, soalan yang keluar bertubi-tubi macam pop corn meletup-letup. Bila dorang penat, they had a break; coffee and biscuits. Then they started again. The IC (independent chair) siap ketuk gelas lagi, ting ting ting,,round two (sabar je la..ingat ni wrestling ke?) Aku rasa memang teruk la especially part yang aku tersekat-sekat. They kept saying that the thesis is good tapi aku rasa itu hanyalah ayat penyedap kan hati, hahahaha

10 minit yang penuh debaran dan sangat panjang….

Keluar je dari meeting room, terus ke bilik Alan. Meraung la kejap, hahahaha (nak gelak bila ingat balik) Tapi masa tu sebab tension giler kot and aku rasa memang akan fail!

Tak senang duduk aku…tak tau apa nak cakap ngan Alan pon. Masa tu memang aku berdoa supaya tak fail dan redha dengan apa yang aku akan dengar kejap lagi….

When they call me in

Me and my supervisor went in together. The IC told EE that the supervisor can be present during the announcement. The EE said…wow, this is interesting..She then stood up, followed by the IE…I remembered she began her announcement by saying..”Haliyana Khalid, it is my pleasure to award you with..(masa ni aku blur lagi..) Last aku dengar, congratulations Dr Haliyana Khalid..Bila dia hulur tangan barula ‘terjaga’ lebih sikit (this is really happening)

It’s all for the better

Aku masih lagi tak sangka yang aku dah habis viva. Perasaan? Sedikit anti-klimaks! Apa yang aku boleh cakap berdasarkan pengalaman aku..Bila buat Phd jangan selalu risau, walaupun risau itu perlu tapi jika terlalu risau, nanti tidak ke mana. Dalam phd, jangan berlumba, nanti kecewa. Kita boleh menjadikan pencapaian orang lain sebagai inspirasi tetapi bukan kayu ukur pencapaian kita. Phd bukan UPSR, PMR, SPM atau ijazah. Kita bukannya berlumba-lumba untuk menjadi ‘top of the class’, ‘deans lists’ atau pun ‘teachers’ pet’. Setiap kita mempunyai hala tuju and skop penyelidikan yang berbeza. Kita berjuang dalam konteks kita sendiri.

Kita perlu mengikis tanggapan bahawa yang habis phd dalam masa 2 atau 3 tahun adalah lebih pandai daripada mereka yang mengambil masa lebih lama. Kita juga perlu mengikis tanggapan bahawa yang tiada pembetulan di dalam thesis adalah lebih pandai daripada mereka yang diberi masa yang lama untuk menyiapkan kerja akhir. Inspirasi bukan kayu ukur!

Penilaian viva adalah subjektif. Walaupun kita dan supervisor sudah merasakan bahawa thesis itu adalah baik, tetapi belum tentu ia mendapat penerimaan yang serupa dari ‘external examiner’, dan begitulah sebaliknya.

Pada saya, semuanya bergantung kepada kuasa Allah, and it’s all for the better!

Saturday, May 22, 2010

2 new books; 2 old books...

These 2 books I have bought since last 2 years ago...very good and easy to understand writings for me.....
Soon, I will share the important points from these books..insyaallah....



These 2 books,I just bought last few days ago.Actually, I have plan to buy since last 2008 but I always have fear either I can finish my journey or not. Only now, in final year, I have some strength to buy and try to read it as soon as possible. I have another one year(followed my university rules) to write up my phd thesis from now.....insyaallah...amin...............


All books bought from amazon.co.uk.....I got the new books with very cheap price and convenience way as well......

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Cabaran dan Dugaan

Cabaran 2008
*9 bulan pertama- bergilir2 ke sekolah memandangkan 2 kanak2 kecil perlu dijaga; untuk hantar kat orang 2 org agak mahal kosnya
*bulan ke tujuh- ada musibah yang menimpa menyebabkan kami 'patah kaki' hampir 2 bulan, tidak kemana2 ; hanya di rumah kecuali sekitar Manchester menggunakan bas awam
*'culture shock' - aku tidak dapat menerima kenyatan orang sekeliling sibuk mempedulikan saiz fizikal tubuh badan anak2 aku.......aku sedih sehingga sekarang..walaupun aku sudah memaafkan orang2 sekeliling itu namun kesedihan itu tak bisa dilenyapkan.....
*supervisor aku tidak ada pelajar phd lain selain dari aku...sebelum ini, dia hanya ada pelajar Mphil yang sudah bergelar Dr......tidak bermakna aku boleh berjumpa dengan beliau setiap minggu, perjumpaan hanya sebulan sekali dan kdg2 dua bulan sekali...dia juga sibuk sepertimana supervisor2 yang ada nama Prof di hadapan....
*tahap sensitif- makin berganda-ganda semenjak 'culture shock'.....
*rumah diancam tikus dan pelbagai hidupan yang tidak diundang- rasa tidak ada keserasian lagi pada rumah itu....
*Zimah mengalami alahan pada kepalanya tatkala musim panas menjelma,

Cabaran 2009
^Mizah dah ke sekolah sejak Sept 2008,maka Hanie bolehlah dihantar ke 'babysitter'...maka dapatlah ke sekolah setiap hari walaupun dalam tempoh yang amat terhad
^Perlu mampu menyesuaikan diri dengan suasana kekalutan setiap pagi menyiapkan anak2 ke sekolah dan aku serta suami
^Pindah rumah baru yang 1001% selesa daripada rumah lama- mood aku makin elok
^Hanie perlu dipantau sakitnya itu..yang aku telah ketahui sejak lahir lagi.

Cabaran 2010
*Aku keguguran
*Hingga kini masih tidak serik untuk mencuba(menambah le,bukan mencuba utk keguguran...nau'zubillah...biarlah org nak kata apa pun, aku ada justifikasinya yang tersendiri)
*Mizah perlu diperiksa matanya yang dikhuatiri didapati ada masalah.....
*Sentiasa ada perasaan takut...................... takut tak mampu membawa pulang apa yang dicitakan dan menamatkan perjalanan ini....
*Hanie masih perlu dipantau dari masa ke semasa; namun dia tetap cergas dan riang ria macam kanak2 lain dan sangat 'petah'......

Friday, April 30, 2010

Satu demi satu.....

Orang2 Malaysia di kariah aku(CHeetham Hill) kini semakin berkurangan....dalam tahun ni saja lebih daripada 10 famili akan pulang.Terasa hiba jugak....hari ni pun ada akak senior aku,kak ima dan keluarga yg akan 'back for good' memandangkan suaminya sudah bergelar DR....sedihle....sbb akak ni mmg pakar kek...dah tak boleh tempah kek sedap dah kat dia......kenangan terakhir dengan k.ima masa 'shopping di NEXT Mac lalu..hehehe....semalam di rumah dia ...terlupa bergambar.....

*k.ima-dua dari kiri....yg kelima-k.ita dari kiri pun dah pulang awal bulan April.......

Aku juga yang masih di sini...sentiasa memohon dipermudahkan moga2 aku akan pulang juga suatu hari nanti seperti mereka-palaing awal pun tahun depan, jangan mimpi le dalam tahun ni yer...perjalanan aku masih jauh.......halangan pun masih banyak lagi.....

.....sepertimana juga salah satu lagu dlm track di sebelah ni- Home by Westlife....
(cari sendiri ye...)

Sunday, April 18, 2010

My own personal collection for Web 2.0 Conference


My first time presentation outside from Univ of Salford since my phd journey....so far so good...got significance feedback....

Dr Hadas...from....................................l


Also final year phd student from Royal Holloway University, Surrey

Assoc Prof Dr ........................from Greece
Dr Yair Levy from USA

Keynote Speaker...Prof Nicholas Romano from USA....very amazing man....

Dr Trevor Baker
with Chair of conference (he is my sv's friend...)...Prof Ray Hackney....
with Prof Mohini Singh from RMIT,Melbourne

Dr Michelle Ramim also from USA....

Monday, April 12, 2010

Web 2.0 conference



Credit to :
Mr Peter Klein
Brunel University
+44 7710 559975
www.educatedc.com

For this lovely video sharing....

By Prof Nicholas Romano

Internet Metaphors 1

Wednesday, March 03, 2010

I done that job.....

Feel relief at this moment..
my trial to presenting my findings had been done and now the polishing and improvement based on the question and suggestion will be highlighted in conjunction for my IE examination soon...Big thanks to my both of sv's and my beloved friends and the other audience for coming.Not forget to my spouse to help me too in supporting me in important job during the presentation....I feel more confident for next real one exam soon...even though my report writing not finish at ll yet.

Saturday, October 03, 2009

Experience as reviewer...

Actually I'm not excellent in english even though in my area yet....however, after I get the opportunities being as reviewer, last 19th aug, I try my best to fulfil it.Last night, I managed to submit the comments to regional editor.Is it hard???erm..honestly being as amateur, off course just simple comments and technical comments was put inside it, compare the comment on content wise of the paper. But the paper is very good research work and I bless that the paper will be accepted in the journal as soon as possible....I do my readings for the paper almost 5 times since to ensure understandings of the contentwise, data analysis and conclusion of the research. At the moment I shouldn't inform the title of the paper and author yet, since it was confidential.

Thursday, September 24, 2009

ECKM 2009

Cannot explain too much at themoment...

can go this link for some momentos.....pictures during ECKM 2009(3rd to 4th Sept)

anybody interested on ECKM 2010?????feel free to visit this site>>>>>>>>>

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

reviewer....

hikmah of accepted journals...
today I was appointed to be a reviewer to one of paper related with my phd research and I was given 49 days to review the paper...hopefully I can finish my responsibilities within 10 days insyaallah....this is my first time being as reviewer, although no benefits in term in money..but the knowledge inside from the paper is more valuable.......wallahualam.....

Saturday, June 27, 2009

Nothing special at the moment....

Since my previous entry..not too much my progress ...(actually I feel wory so much on this matter..but sometimes momentum not at all on top....) currently my momentum just in the middle..not too high not too down.....

Since last week, follow my spouse attend his conference...well done dear...you perform well..since no 'hard' question....next month..insyaallah he will proceed with his IA...good luck dear...then I already waste my phd work for 5 days since we've been away to netherlands....as mind theraphy..although I can access internet free at the hotel..but since the plan is to mind theraphy..so...yes totally mind theraphy..

Then just start back my work last Tuesday...still on collection data stages(it doesn't mean my LR already complete..because my LR still depends on my data findings...)...in the same time, I've got bad news for ECKM 2009.....er..not my luck maybe..but...I'm still can go for find networking.....insyaallah....

Yesterday..monthly KM discussion group with Clem and Julie Egbu...also quite interesting..we're come out some idea to produce journal....hopefully after debate some issue on tacit,implicit and explicit concept in KM......

That's all...and till now..I'm still doing my phd work although in weekend to finish my target..tommorrow..insyaallah my second daughter's birthday...maybe have some little treats for her....insyaallah...

Just to share this blogs(my sister give to me this link... ..thank you dear...)

and currently i like to hear this song I don't know why.....

Thursday, June 11, 2009

SPARC 2009

Last month-8th and 9th may...alhamdulillah..for my first time poster presentation....new experience for me......
Salford Postgraduate Annual Research Conference...don't misunderstand...actually they're mixed people(foreigners and local students are similar position...) in this conference..but as usual..as Malaysian I'm normally tendency to snap with Malaysian's people too..you can see from the presenters...actually I'm not available enter for every session on presentations due on family constraints...but the most important...confidence when present the poster and knowledge sharing with my research and others.....




very small poster like me...next time should be bigger than this...AO size maybe this one A2 only size....

like this posters...bigger than my poster...


my officemate..Mrs Norazah Samat.....


Just known her during conference although from the same university but different school..aiseymenn..I'ma lready forgot her name..sorry dear..I'll recall again later...

Among the presenters......





my phd mate- Mrs Siti Uzairiah from BUHU..currently back to malaysia for data collection
also my phd mate- Mrs Siti Norbaya from BUHU
also my phd mate- Mrs Anis also doing in KM research.....she also as presenters but I''m no have chance to join in ....
also my phd mate- Mrs Mastura and Mrs Asmah ......during lunch break...

Again another presenters....



end up session...announcement the poster winner..Although I'm not win but it's ok...
my office mate- Mrs Rabiyah and Mrs Norhaslinda...they're under same sv....
Me with other poster presenter..from Liverpool Johns Moore...she did on fantastic research...on chipanzee's behaviour...

On my left - from Newcastle University..sorry forgot the name....
On my left - Mrs Khadijah also from Newcastle University but also attached with UUM

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Penantian suatu penyiksaan...

Currently still waiting for information from 'down under'....erm...wait for somebody really needs high patient ....hopefully before February I'll get the responds.....that is true the old words say that 'Penantian suatu penyiksaan'....
updated on 23rd Jan > got feedback from 'down under'-the person promise to give info as soon as possible..alhamdulillah...

Erm..hopefully too that my interim(proposal presentation) will be around May or June..I'll be more confidence on that time rather on April...I'll discuss with my sv this coming meeting...wallahualam...ya allah make me strong to face this challenges....

Not forget to all the best for Mr Kamarul Anuar(BUHU,Salford) who will be his interim tomorrow~ 22nd Jan......Good luck....I'm sure you can do it...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
updated on 23rd Jan > he already pass his interim..congrats!!!!

Wednesday, January 07, 2009

Why must look up me???

Normally two person in Malaysia that I always communicate through voipstunt..first one, off course my beloved mom and second one is my beloved sister-Kak Wa…she also one of my spirit in doing my phd..my last conversation with her few days ago..she said that she so ‘kagum’ with me..with my dreams and my way of talks she said also that I’m mature as on my age…whereas I never feel like that…actually I’m very sensitive and also ‘hard hearted person(keras hati)_but this hard hearted person I can’t apply to my relationships with my sv..in terms of my lifestyle..yes….normally..until today this year my initial age will change to 3……...I felt that I never mature as on my age…although I’ve three kids but sometimes I’m feel that I also like being kids…I don’t know….but maybe my sister’s view is right and precise-wallahualam... because she know me since I was baby- she also had being my babystter during my childhood…..and she know me better than I know myself..hopefully with my style can be the strength for me to get my dreams …like in the song ’Harapan Berbunga Realiti’….some of my friends also had been mentioned the same way…

Just Allah know my feelings…. lots of tests, barriers, delays, failure and many things that we’ve (I and my spouse) faced through before we’re in this level..and I realize that I’ll never give up in my life…the more barriers come out I should be more stronger….wallahualam
p/s I never feel I'm the best among the best in my family..... just enough I'm being good role model to my girls...